I'm Airin.
Officially fifteen
I'm a hard-core shopper.
& i Love to Daydream! ;D Love me, as i love you. [:
♥ Ohso Drama!
Reminscening the Childhood. Daddy, bring me to the beach and play alright? Would you take me to Europe one day? I wanna shop like a professional.(: I'm a vain-pok; I want to look pretty. & The Resplendence Matinee is forever. soulmate is the most important person in my life.
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I wish i am the FAIRY QUEEN;
who can give whatever my loved ones want.
I hope to be a ENTERTAINER;
so that i can entertain my loved ones.
I want to be with my GIRLFRIEND;
to be with them forever.
I CARE for my friends;
they are my support in life.
I CHERISH my surronding;
as life is fragile.
The GRANTED wish of mine;
I had a good life.
The HOPELESS wish of mine;
I want to be happy&carefree.
okayy back . why is my word in blue ? blue represent moody and sadness . with my result . it's sucky . failed 2 . maths and science. dont wish to go further talking on it . hms. this few days had been bad . ytd . was my worst day . mum talk to me , she some sort just look down on me .
just bcos of my result just bcos i cant get wht my bro gets . she make me feel lik a letdown . well , maybe i am one . she said till as if i m those who only know shopping and knows no feeling . i m her daughter ! why must she do this to me. yes yes . she broke my heart . and wht i did ? the most stupid thing in the world . cry in my bedroom . i succeed not crying in school. okayys .
my relationship is in a mess.
what had happen between us ? lack of understanding maybe . i just feel so jealous whn he told me he find lilin cute and nice. yeahs . maybe i shdn't be jealous . but whn u r really in love with tht guy , and he says tht at the time whn u r very sad . wht wld u do ? i did sumthing wrong . yeahs . i gave himt he girl's number . adn her sis says i don't know how much he loves me . yeahs . mayb ididnt know . but i do know how much i loves him .
and for dieting . i quit . i admit i m suffering for anorexia . and for his sake n my sake , i m trying to quit . he says i m too skinny . yes . i m struggling . and he told me he hate girls saying herself fat and lack of confidence . yeah . i m d girl i think . lack of confidence bcos of my acne prob . whn i m confident . ppl tends to say i m just bhb . so , wht's d use ? i m trying to boost up my confidence . i 'm trying .
i just make him so sad his disappointment , his sorrow , his sadness is filling his life up. and the main culprit is me ? how bad could a stead be ? so bad i think ... i m making his life so suck up . somethimes i just feel lik backing off . yes . he loves me alot . but wht i had done cannot be undone . yepps . i did too much sins . he uderstand me so well , wht abt me ? did i really understand his heart ? i don't think so . i numb his feeling . how am i going to defrost this heart warm again ? ppl u teach me . i dunno wht to do . yes . this month i quarrel alot w him . we just seems to b unsatisfied . it's my who causes him like tht .
hubby , i dunno wht happen to us . i long noe u love me .. but i just feel tht .. we are drifting ..
