he gave me his answer . he just feel like being a friend with me . he had his reason . he evn said we will be stead if we still have love ... i asked him for a reason . he just told me , i dun wan to hurt you or you hurt me . i told him love will hvae pain , yet he can't take it up .
what the hell . i'm fucking sad larhhs . it's just a quarrel and he's so scared . i dun understand why others can but we can't ! why yixiu & weisheng can last so long whn they also quarrel yet we cant ? is our love not deep as theirs ? i wonder alot . why why why ? he gave me the ring . he told me his promise . he said he will look after me forever , he said he would love me always , he said he would protect me , he said he would take care of me , he said his shoulder would be for me to lean on . he said that's his promise . he said this ring will remind us we are couples , laogong&laopo .
what a promise ! i promise i would love him till the end and i would take care of him . why ? the promise seems to be break ... i said i wait for him . he told me .. thn you wait bahh . yes i admit waiting is a torture . but waiting for the one i love is not ! he said he suffer . of course i know he is ! but why do he want to suffer ? just because he is scared to hurt me ? he send me to hell now whn he said he do not want tohurt me .. w/o him . i felt so lost in the world . everytime thr would this hand holding onto me and now he let go of it . he said he would still love me . how ?
would there stil be chances between us ? how wish there would be . but he just can't face it . how i wish he is who he is like last time yet he told me he can't . i felt os guilty to make him like that . howi wish my mum will let me out and i will run to the beach and just jump down into the sea and never come back again .
i'm a let down . i can't even have a steady relationship . . eileen , whats wrong wth you ? you are such a failer . why are you so devoted to him ? cos i really love him loads loads .
yet he will not be by my side anymore . everything is gone gone gone ! to be frnds with you seems to be the hardest thing in the world that i can do it . for bing a frnd with you means the way u tok to me will b different the way u treat me will changed the way you care for me will not be thr , the way you protect me will be lost . that's what will happen if i become your frnd ... i just dun wan it to happen . how am i going to face you whn we become frnds ? whn u told me to be frnd ... whnevr i see you i will tears n cry .
Love me , that ‘s all I ask from you . say you need me and I will follow you .
Eileen you must be dreaming , stories like this won’t come true , Eileen you are talking in riddle and it’s not like you !
how i wish everything would be back like how loving we were yet now you talked to me so coldly . you pain i'm pain ! fucked up and messed up life ! why?! where is your courage ?
last time whnevr i'm sad you will cheer me up , you will say sorry to me . now , you don't give a damn to me . last time you will send sweet msges to me . now evn i msged you , you don't give a damn about it . last time you told me never to leave you but now you are the one who left me alone even i asked not to leave me . you left me thr and bleed . we built this relationship strong but now i see it fall day by day .
maybe everything mustcome to an end . but i just dun wanna end with him !
i hate being suffer in this state i hate this pain yet i miss the pain whn we quarrel last time . last time we quarreled and will cherish each other more . but this quarrel make us drift even further ...
since you gave me the ring , you should follow your promise . the ring will remind you , you said you love me forever you better do it ...
It's the Drama Queen @ 1:30 pm
