daddy , rmb the days when i want my lil toys ?i had my maths remedial today.
it was rather okay ...
f&n we make butterfly cakes .
and hoon kueh ; malay kind one alright .
well , it was definitely a success [: trust me . it's superb .
i'm truely contented with it . ;D;D;D
well , nothing will happen to me .
nothing can destruct me .
nothing much happen today . i'm tired of everything .
kinda exhausted today (:
that broken heart with shattered tears .
that lonely soul with that darkest road .
the cheerful smiley has a story behind .
the saddiest pathway to the stream of blood .
fairytales doesn't always go with great ending .
someone in there gotta sacrifice . [:
went compass w weisheng today . ;D
he went to buy belt . yeahs i was there .
he don't believe i can wear giorjunior .
i can wear okay ! LOL .
then went precious thots , i went to take a peep at forever frnds bear
it's the bear which cheers me up no matter wht circumstances the bear please me a lot .
they look so innocent , so carefree . the touch of them gives me heaven .
sometimes i don't wanna be friends w you .
you hurt me too much . (:
and i don't wish to be hurt once again .
sometimes i really wonder why i think sooo much ?
but you know ... i have my stands .
i needa think sooo much soo that my things will be solved .
family problems , frnds stuff , its adding the burden to me .
but for whatever reasons , i wanna stand strong for my family .
i wanna help my family , save my family .
i don't want a broken one . so people before you try to hurt me or get your goal by hurting me .
i will do whatever i can to provoke you .
so stop it . you're such a pest to me .
birthday this year i hope will be a touching one just like one fairy tales .
those which my tears are meant with happiness .
i hate those feelings where i stand in a corner and break down .
mummy , the way you are now is maiing me break down .
but i know what's your wish .
aces from my result ; i will try hard to get it for you .
the moment i talkt o you today ; the way you reacted is totally different .
it hurts me a lot . to see you this way .
i want you to scold me , i want you to nag at me .
i miss the way you were .
those feeling seems to die today .
you totally became quiet . you don't wanna tell me the reasons .
i'm holding my tears back , i don't wish you to see me sad .
i'm gonna hold all the burden you had , i don't wish to see you in such state .
i'm holding all your sadness ; i wanna give you happiness .
i wanna grow up . i wanna earn money for you .
i wanna give you the best i could give . i want you to be happy .
a life with no worries .
tell me , tell me ! let me know how am i going to put you back to pieces .
how am i going to save this family .
i needa be strong , glann is still young .
i don't want him to live with a broken heart ; i don't want him to feel so sad at this young age .
glann , i'm sorry to be so strict with you . i wanna let you know , i have my reasons for being so strict with you . i'm afraid you will turn bad .
i don't want you to have the same fate as your sister . you got a very bright future .
i am very concern with my family .
their my blood , my flesh , my everything .
i wish god will tell me how am i going to stand strong ?
when depressions come between my parents .
i feel so lost . i feel so gone .
i'm like a goner .
no matter how much you looked down on me .
i don't believe i can't stand up one day .
no matter how uch you humiliate me .
i'm sure gonna don't care about it .
no matter how much you want me dead ,
i'm sure i'm gonna stay alive bitting you back .
for whatever reason i'm doing this .
in any circumstances ,
whatever happens to my family will make me insane .
i will do anything to mend it back .
i'm the oldest .
ii have a brother . i have my parents .
i want that happy family . (:
i will get what i want . i will mend it back .
daddy , i promise . i will .
i don't care how much my relatives have to say , but i think it's my fault causing my family like that .
it's still my fault .
all fingers will still be pointing at me .
i will carry it , it's not about what you wanna say about me
i dont mind you saying i'm a bad girl or whatsoever .
wht i'm concern is my parents , i'm not caring my face .
i'm not caring about pride . i just want that family back to normal .
daddy , i rmb the days .
when i run to the field and you told me :
eileen , you're my lil princess .
daddy will always be there for you . (:
those lil words you said to me is still etching in my mind .
those lil protection you gave still running in my mind .
it's now my turn to be your guardian angel .
you're my everything .
i don't mind being the poorest person in the world .
i just wanna be the happiest person in the world with my happiest family w me leading my carefree life .
pest , stop giving me problems .
it's a lil dramatic . but it's true . it's my life .
so if you fucking think i'm acting .
so be it .
cos youre just a fucking stranger .
you don't even see yourself as anything .
& hey , i'm tired of everything .
sorry for such emo blog post ...
tata !
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when is fairytale going to happen with a happily ever after ?
It's the Drama Queen @ 8:33 pm
